Leaving the Southern Utah Desert.
It’s been a funny time looking for inspiration. Sometimes you’re moving too fast to take the time to stop and think about the things that might move you. Sometimes even the most overwhelming events float right by without notice because you’re focused on other goals, or are just too caught up to care. The desert hasn’t always been a source of inspiration for me. I remember when I first moved there 5 years ago. I wanted to be writer, but instead I was waiting tables at Caesar’s Palace. I remember starting an article about Freedom. I wanted to know how people defined Freedom, and if they felt free or trapped by their lives and the choices they had made. I thought it was cool, but I don’t really think I knew I was writing about, who I was writing for or why. The piece on Freedom was mainly about asking others questions in order to make a choice about a path that I was unsure about. When I visit the desert today I’m awestruck by the beauty and can’t wrap my head around the wild there, that is untamed, harsh and yes, free. When I saw this video by Lana Del Ray I was in love and immediately inspired. It shares all the stains of desert living in the same forgiving light I now seem to always view it in. I still haven’t figured out what true freedom is, but I’m making choices everyday to try and find it.
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Dust storm in the distance mountains at Silver Island
I thought about starting this blog by praising myself for some of the new things I’d done lately. It was going to be a big pat on the back for reattempting some past failures then succeeding, and for finally giving the go ahead on some intimidating pursuits I’ve been putting off for sometime now. But by the time I find myself tick-typing away on my keyboard all I can think about is all the things I realize I have yet to learn.
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